Am I A Vampire? If I am I Hate Mondays.

Garfield always hated Mondays. Mondays never really bothered me until now. For some reason the majority of my rejection letters arrive on Mondays. Today's letter was a form letter: Dear Author....... At least some of the other literary agents took the time to actually write it themselves and make it a little personal.
I didn't sleep at all again last night. Maybe I'm a Vampire? Vampires don't sleep at night. They sleep during the day. Some of my best writing comes at night. I write non-stop and fast because the words in my head just keep on going and sometimes I'm afraid I won't be able to keep up. At times I don't write instead I just watch TV. I recently discovered a new show. It's an old show on TVLAND but new to me, It's Garry Shandling's Show. OMG it is so funny!!!!! The show just cracks me up. Then later on Miami Vice comes on and talk about a flashback to the 80's. I remember me and 'A' having Friday Night Vice Nights.
Tomorrow my favorite group Duran Duran drops their new single, FALLING DOWN, I already heard the song on the web and I love it. I can't wait until they start their tour. I am so there. Also tomorrow is mom's birthday. God knows what she and I would have done if she was still here. There's not a minute that goes by that I don't think of her. Sometimes I believe it could be a reason why I don't sleep. The tragic way she died broke my heart. Writing puts me in another world and keeps my mind busy. But not today so I went shopping. I hit the Chanel boutique, Versace and Cartier. There's nothing like buying diamonds to cheer me right up.
Later on I went to my hair stylist to get my roots redone. Amongst the gossip and little doggies running around free. I began to browse through the magazines, which were all outdated. The salon charges a fortune so I didn't understand why their magazines were old. I was flipping through one when I came across a blurb about Jenna Jameson- the XXX film star. She published a book not to long ago- How To Make Love Like A Porn Star. It spent 6 weeks on the NY Times Best Sellers List. OMG!!! A porn star published a book before me. Okay she is known to be one of the, if not the most famous porn stars in the world. What do I need to do to get a publishing deal? Actually I'm jumping the gun- what do I need to do to get a literary agent? I'm sending out query letters, what more can I do? What more do I need to do? It's not easy. Al lot of agents will only work with well established published authors. Then there are agencies who charge a fee, those are the ones you stay away from. At times it's so emotionally draining but I love to write and not to brag but I am a damn good writer!!!! There is no other option for me. I just need a break, I need that break where someone will just give me a chance.

There is nothing new under the sun.

XOXOXOXO,
Cocaine Princess