Cocaine Princess here.
I recently read somewhere about writer Jack Lord who wrote The Call Of The Wild. He went through 600 rejections before his first sale. Oh my God, I hope I don't have to wait that long. Then I start fearing what if there are no more literary agents for me to send query letters to? What am I suppose to do then? One thing I am thankful for is I don't think I will ever run out of story ideas due to the people I associate with. There's not a chance of me developing writers block. Sometimes when I can't sleep I'll get out my diaries and re-read my entries, this is where I get my ideas from. As I read them I think damn, I can't believe so and so told me this or I can't believe I saw this or heard this. And the stuff that I miss, Valentina sure enough fills me in. You would think that the amount of writing I do in a day would keep my mind off of things but as I am writing I can't stop also thinking when I will receive good news which creates nothing but anxiety for me. A dear friend of mine recently told me to visualize clearly I have received a publishing contract and to picture my books being sold at book stores and going on book signing tours. I concentrate hard and it does calm me down. Sometimes when I'm at the mall I'll go into the book store and I'll picture my books on display. I can't wait for that day to turn into a reality.
Some people have been asking me questions by emails. Some of them I can answer and some of them I can't. Here are the ones that I can:
1) What is your name and when will you reveal your face in your pictures? ANSWER: When the time is right I will tell you all my name and you'll see my face.
2)Do you have a boyfriend? Is Senor Bling your boyfriend? What happened between you and him? ANSWER: No, I don't have a boyfriend. Senor Bling was never and never will be my boyfriend and as to what happened between him and I? You'll just have to read about it when my book is published.
3) How long have you known Valentina? ANSWER: Valentina and I have been friends since we were little babies. My mom and her mom were best friends too.
4) How long have you been modeling? ANSWER: I got discovered at 15 and started professionally at 16.
5) How old are you? ANSWER: Let's just say I'm over 21.
6) Did any of your school friends know you were a Cocaine Princess? ANSWER: I was home schooled. I didn't know because until I got a little older and figured things out. And yes, I loved being home schooled. I got to see and experience the world first hand rather than just reading about it.
7) What is your opinion about the Drug War? You think it can ever be won? ANSWER: As long as there is a demand for any product you can bet your life there will be someone supplying it. The problem with the War On Drugs is it can't be treated like a war. It's needs to be treated as a social problem. Dismantling the Cartels won't help either. When Pablo Escobar was gunned down did it stop the flow of drugs?
8) The people you write about, aren't they afraid of you telling the world all about their personal lives and their secrets? ANSWER: My writing is cleverly disguised. All names, dates, locations and appearances are all changed dramatically. Maybe I don't even live where I say I do. I use to email chapters of one of my books that was based on a group of people who were the actual individuals I was writing about. They were very impressed.
9) What happened to the picture of you in the short-shorts and bustier? ANSWER: I had to take that picture down because it was an up close shot of my face. When I joined this blogging community hardly anyone was reading my blog. A few people started to and they linked my blog to theirs and so on. Many people started leaving comments so I quickly removed the photo.
If you have any more questions send them my way and I'll answer them, at least the ones I can.
I have a lot more to write about but I have to get back to my manuscript now. Keep checking back on my blogs for new entries.
XOXOXOXO,
Cocaine Princess.
