Cocaine Princess here.
It's been 8 months since the breakup. I won't go into the in-depth details of what happened other than how emotionally and physically painful its been. If you remember years ago I was involved with Senor Bling (SB) My break-up with him was much different than this one. SB & I had known each other for years, we attended the same functions and ran in the same circles. We got together shortly after my mom's passing. Despite his reputation of being a bit of a player I stayed in a relationship with him...until I caught him cheating on me. I of course was deeply hurt (who likes to be cheated on!) but it was a different kind of hurt. When it happened I can't say I was shocked on account of his reputation. Truth be told I realized afterwards I was only with him because I was still grieving my mom's death. The wounds were still fresh and my head was still in a fog. There would be no way I would have even started a relationship with him otherwise. My break-up with, lets call him "Blue Eyes" was different. Different because I was totally blindsided.
A week before the breakup Blue Eyes had mentioned how frustrated he had become because we hadn't seen each other for 8 months. It was nobody's fault, Covid kept us apart and the border was closed and non-essential travel wasn't permitted. The time that I did spend with him, he mentioned it was more of a vacation romance than an actual relationship. He mentioned that he felt we were drifting apart and the connection that was once there, wasn't. I didn't see it that way nor did I feel any of those things. He did though. God knows I did and tried everything I could to relocate there. With every fibre of my being I tried to be there with him on a full time basis so we could wake up together each and every morning and go to bed together each and every night. I tried moving heaven and earth to be with him.
We had been dating for 4 years. We met on social media. He DM'ed me on Jan 14/16 and the rest they say is history. Right away there was this instant emotional connection with him. In my heart of hearts it felt like I'd known him for years. There was such a sense of familiarity. It was one of those things where I could almost feel him and each time I did there would be a message from him within minutes. We first DM'ed each other for a few weeks, then we exchanged phone numbers and began texting and then came the phone call. It was Feb 7/16 aka Superbowl Sunday!! It was Superbowl 50 and Denver defeated Carolina 24-10. I was still at work and had the closing shift. Blue Eyes was at a bar watching the game. We had been texting each other throughout the day. At that point we already had been texting Good Morning, Good Night and texting throughout the day including when we left for work, when we came home and what we had for lunch and what we were planning to eat for dinner. I remember my heart fluttering at the sound of his voice....
We communicated everyday talking about everything under the sun. The emotional connection was there all that was left was the physical connection....
XOXO,
Cocaine Princess
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