Senor Bling- Potential Fiance?

I love listening to music. I always have. It has such an emotional power. It's amazing how music can trigger my memory when I hear certain songs. I can remember exactly what I was doing, what I was wearing and what I was feeling. Last night as I was going to bed I saw Green Day's video Blvd. Of Broken Dreams. That was one of my mom's favorite songs. Every time I hear it I remember mom and I Christmas Shopping in 2005 at H.R.  and I remember she was humming along to it. What did we buy that day? A better question is, what didn't we buy? Little did we know it would be the last Christmas we would spend with each other. It wasn't until months later we heard the diagnosis. I can never forget that day. It was like a sharp blow to the head and then waking up in a sea of fog. You don't know where you are or who you are. All you do know is you need immediate help. In a blink of an eye how your life can change.

Today Valentina arranged for a spa day at the villa. Two masseuses came in and my masseuse was brilliant. I felt every little knot and kink dissolve away. Afterwards, still in bathrobes Valentina and I just lounged on the balcony with a platter of fresh fruit: watermelon, mangoes and pineapples. As we were eating Valentina asked me a question, she wanted to know about Senor Bling. What did I see him as? A boyfriend? Potential fiance? I told her neither. I told her that he is gorgeous, he is rich, a complete gentleman to me, kind with a loving heart and worships the ground I walk on but I just don't feel as if he's the one. "But he thinks you're the one for him," replied Valentina. I explained to her that when I'm with him I don't feel complete. If he was the one then I would feel complete. I do love him but there's that one part of my heart that tells me that there's someone else for me. She said I shouldn't ignore my heart's feelings. She told me that every time she talks to him all he talks about is me. She then asked me a question that nearly made me fall off the balcony, "what if he proposes to you?" I looked at her and said, "Oh God, do you know something that I don't?" She insisted that she didn't but I didn't believe her until I made her swear on her Louis Vuitton handbag collection. I don't want to break his heart and I don't want to string him along either. But each time I see Senor Bling I turn to mush. What is a Cocaine Princess to do?!?! He's coming to Valentina's party and God help me to make to right decision.

In the evening we headed on out to the old city for dinner. One thing about Cartagena is the army is almost everywhere. As we were strolling along the streets Valentina kept on looking around to see if those two army guys were on duty. I told her that they're probably still doing push-ups on the beach.
The old city surrounded by the wall is so breath-taking filled with cobble-stoned streets and colonial buildings, sidewalk cafes where lovers hold hands and balconies filled with beautiful flowers and their scent lingers in the heat. Elderly men playing chess or dominoes while whistling every time a pretty latina walks by. The city was thriving. In Latin American people take the time to enjoy life. The Rat Race Life doesn't exist here. After dinner we went back into the new city and ate dessert at a little coffee/pastry shop. The desserts aside from looking sinful looked as if they were loaded with fat. I touched my stomach and Valentina noticed and said, "forget about the diet." And then she ordered me the chocolate lava cake.
I'm back in my room and I can't believe I ate that lava cake despite how delicious it was. I can actually feel myself gaining weight as I blog. Maybe if I do a couple hundred crunches I might feel better.............................................
Valentina is beside me with a bowl of popcorn and we're watching Rihanna's new music video: Please Don't Stop The Music. I must admit that I do feel relaxed. Earlier I thought about calling up 'A' to ask her if I had gotten any mail, in particular anything from a literary agent but then I thought that would defeat the whole purpose of why I am here in the first place. Tomorrow is another brand new day and I'll be up early to watch the sunrise.

XOXOXOXO,
Cocaine Princess