Cocaine Princess here and I have a dilemma.
Last night I had yet another sleepless night. Maybe it's time I sought some sort of medical help. Valentina was up too last night only because she had an absolute weird craving for Beluga Caviar and a strawberry-kiwi Wine Cooler. I don't like caviar. I don't like seafood. Instead I had some chocolate truffles. As we were both enjoying our pricey midnight-snack I was up stressing about how many pounds I've gained during this trip and not being able to stop eating the truffles. I tried not to eat anymore of the delicious delights but they were one of my favorite kind, chocolate raspberry. If that wasn't enough I began thinking about Senor Bling. God help me!!! I don't know what is wrong with me and why I was thinking about him. Valentina must have had some sort of 6th-sense because she looked up at me before taking a sip and said 'quit thinking about him.' 'Who?' I innocently asked. 'You-know-who-I'm talking about,' she replied. 'I can't help it,' I admitted. It was true I couldn't help it. Thoughts of him were flooding my mind over and over again and even though I am beyond furious at what he did I can't help but think of all the lustful and erotic things we did together. I miss it and him. Oh God I was starting to weaken. People who betray/hurt me are cut out of my life for good and I don't forgive them. But if I was to take Senor Bling back it would mean for the first time in my life I will have forgiven someone by bringing them back into my life. Would I be able to live with myself? He hurt me once before, will he hurt me again? At this point I'm concerned what Valentina's daddy would say to me or what he would do if he knew I went back to Senor Bling? What is a Cocaine Princess to do? Oh sweet and angelic Cupid why are you putting me through this?
XOXOXOXO,
Cocaine Princess
