Cocaine Princess here and I have a dilemma.
Last night I had yet another sleepless night. Maybe it's time I sought some sort of medical help. Valentina was up too last night only because she had an absolute weird craving for Beluga Caviar and a strawberry-kiwi Wine Cooler. I don't like caviar. I don't like seafood. Instead I had some chocolate truffles. As we were both enjoying our pricey midnight-snack I was up stressing about how many pounds I've gained during this trip and not being able to stop eating the truffles. I tried not to eat anymore of the delicious delights but they were one of my favorite kind, chocolate raspberry. If that wasn't enough I began thinking about Senor Bling. God help me!!! I don't know what is wrong with me and why I was thinking about him. Valentina must have had some sort of 6th-sense because she looked up at me before taking a sip and said 'quit thinking about him.' 'Who?' I innocently asked. 'You-know-who-I'm talking about,' she replied. 'I can't help it,' I admitted. It was true I couldn't help it. Thoughts of him were flooding my mind over and over again and even though I am beyond furious at what he did I can't help but think of all the lustful and erotic things we did together. I miss it and him. Oh God I was starting to weaken. People who betray/hurt me are cut out of my life for good and I don't forgive them. But if I was to take Senor Bling back it would mean for the first time in my life I will have forgiven someone by bringing them back into my life. Would I be able to live with myself? He hurt me once before, will he hurt me again? At this point I'm concerned what Valentina's daddy would say to me or what he would do if he knew I went back to Senor Bling? What is a Cocaine Princess to do? Oh sweet and angelic Cupid why are you putting me through this?
XOXOXOXO,
Cocaine Princess
2 comments:
Oh you are in a pickle aren't you! I don't know exactly what he has done to you, as i am new to your blog, but i am assuming it was something really bad. Bed enough for all around you to despise him, so my advise would be to steer clear. For 2 reasons:
1. All those around you will not forgive you for getting back with him and will eventually get fed up of picking up the pieces.
2. For your own emotional balance. Are you prepared to go through pain again? A leopard does not change his spots as they say.
I would hate to hear of you being upset. What did he do? I might take time out tonight to read your blog in full to get an idea.
I have had a friend in this same position, she got back with him and lost all those close to her as they hated him and what he turned her like when they were together. When he ended it, she ended up with no one, except me.
Hope you work it out soon...dont worry about your weight either, you have a figure to die for!
Hayley x
Hey Princess :) Firstly, Mmmmmmm truffles - enough to bring a smile to anybody's face.... so scrumptious ;)
Secondly, I agree with Hayley - you really shouldn't consider returning to him. You are an amazing girl and deserve so much better. Enjoy your single life for a while, and take the opportunity to learn more about yourself. You know your friends will always be around you (even if some of us are on the other side of the world, we still care).
Mr Perfect is definitely out there for you. Don't settle for anything less than the man of your dreams - you deserve the very best.
Loadsaluv, your friend Graham :)
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