Cocaine Princess here.
We communicated everyday talking about everything under the sun. The emotional connection was there all that was left was the physical connection....
Five months later after he first messaged me, on June 14th I flew down to the sunshine state to meet him. I remember the night before I could barely sleep. I had never been so excited about anything! I had taken the day off so I could get my hair done, a mani/pedi and then I was hoping to relax the rest of the day but instead I began repacking my suitcase. I wanted to make sure I was packing the most perfect pieces and of course the cutest bikinis. I had an early morning flight. (I always book the first flight out and the last flight out when I'm returning) Thankfully it was only a 3hr flight, I remember how I couldn't stop smiling through-out the flight. I wasn't at all nervous, if anything I was bursting at the seams. I had checked in 2 suitcases so when I landed at MIA I had to wait by the baggage carousel. Blue Eyes was nowhere to be seen. I had texted him my flight info and was hoping when I had arrived he would be there waiting for me. As luck would have it my phone was dying. I looked around and found a charger outlet. As I plugged it in and started to call, there he appeared walking towards me. I literally ripped the plug out from the socket and in my heels ran towards him. I remember how tightly he held me while we kissed. It felt like the world had stopped and we were the only ones around. After my baggage finally made an appearance we got into the car (I remember how Blue Eyes couldn't remember what parking area he had left his car, after 10 minutes or so he located it) and left the airport. He steered with one hand while his other hand was on my knee. Blue Eyes had made reservations at this cute little breakfast place where we shared a stack of Captain Crunch Pancakes, our first official date. Because I hadn't slept, I had been awake at least 24 hours at that point and could hardly keep my eyes open so along with my pancakes I was loading up on Diet Coke. It was like we had known each other forever, it was so easy talking, the conversations were so smooth. There was no moments of silence and certainly no feelings of any type of awkwardness whatsoever.
After breakie, we drove to the his Publix. One of things we had talked about was grocery shopping, he had mentioned a few weeks earlier we would go so the fridge and cupboard would be stocked with my favorite things. After that conversation I began to imagine how I would be pushing the grocery cart while his hand would be caressing my backside, and that's exactly what happened. One of the things I wanted so badly was a box of Cookie Crisp cereal-- something that is not sold where I live! Other items I picked up were salty snacks, some chocolates, yogurt, fruits and Diet Coke. After loading up on groceries we drove around a bit where he showed me the fancy neighborhood he grew up in, to the high school he attended.
We finally pulled into the driveway of his house where the first thing I saw upon entering was his cat. I'm deathly afraid of cats and dogs. I had tried mentally preparing for months that there would be furry animal in the house and although from what Blue Eyes had told me, cats pretty much mind their own business. Not this cat. She followed me around relentlessly and when she wasn't doing that, she would just stare at me. Blue Eyes rolled my luggage into the bedroom where all I wanted to do was to lye down. Remember, I hadn't had any sleep! I literally crawled onto the bed. Blue Eyes laid down beside me. I remember letting out a huge sigh, not a depressing one but a happy one. I was at peace, everything felt right and with his arms wrapped around me and our bodies so close together we kissed....without going into further detail I can definitely say the physical connection was there.
Later that evening we cuddled on the couch and watched an episode of Miami Vice- Whatever Works.
Btw, the next morning he brought me breakie in bed-- Cookie Crisp cereal!!
I stayed a little under a month. We spent a full weekend in Key West. I even attended a fundraiser where I met his lovely sister, husband and their two kids. The day before I left I was in tears, the uncontrolable kind. To the this day I remember Blue Eyes wiping away my tears and that I would be back in no time.
I can't speak for everyone but a breaking up is a pain similar to death, the loss of a loved one dying. That grief that emotionally cripples you. I'm not sure if any of my loyal followers can relate but it honestly felt like someone was gripping my heart. It hurt so much that I didn't even want to get out of bed. I hadn't been in this much pain since my mom had passed away from cancer. I never thought I would recover until a friend reached out to me.
XOXOXO
Cocaine Princess
