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 Cocaine Princess here.

I wrote in one of my entries awhile back how much I love to write. I love writing even more than fashion, as hard as that is to believe.  I know I need to continue with writing the next segment of the last post but its been a little hard putting my feelings into words. I must have edited and deleted the draft at least 20x. It'll be posted shortly.

In the meantime I'm happy to say the Cocaine Princess is fully vaccinated-- finally life can start going back to normal! It's been a mess for us up here, since March 2020 we had 3 lockdowns, 2 stay at a home order and our idiot Premier almost put our province into a police state. Thankfully every police division refused to comply on account of it going against our constitution. The handling of the pandemic and the vaccine rollout has been one big cluster-f*ck. I won't get into because honestly it just makes my blood boil about how stupid our government has been.  Anyways, the light at the end of the tunnel is finally glowing. The economy has started to open up. I'm hoping by September that all restrictions will be lifted. 

Getting back to the vaccine- I received my first dose on April 21st. Because I didn't live in a hotspot and wasn't an essential worker or a person at risk, I couldn't get Pfizer, I really wanted that one. I got stuck with Astrazeneca. It got to the point where Pfizer was and still is the preferred shot. I compare these vaccines to almost like a designer bag. With Pfizer being the Chanel bag of vaccines whereas Astrazeneca is the Michael Kors of vaccines. 

The government launched a massive vaccine campaign and lowered the ages.  As I stated, I got AZ. After thousands upon thousands of people received their AZ jab, a statement was released by Health Canada where they said AZ would no longer be administrated due to the side effects.  Upon hearing that I felt like damaged goods. This did not go over well with the general population. Within 24 hours of releasing their statement, Health Canada released another statement where this time they said "Everything is fine. Those who received AZ have nothing to worry about. Truth be told I didn't even want the vaccine nor did I believe anything the government was saying. Long story short, the data wasn't supporting the science and lockdowns were proven to be in-effective but yet our government insisted lockdowns were needed. The only reason I got the jab is because I knew if I wanted to travel I would have to be vaccinated.  7 hours after my vaccine my body began to ache, I had the chills and my temperature hit 101F. By the grace of God thankfully it only lasted 12hours.  Right after I received my shot I was told my next appointment would be at the 12 week mark, August. 

Two weeks ago Health Canada made another announcement that the 12 week mark was no longer necessary, 8 weeks was okay and because AZ was no longer available Pfzier or Moderna would be given out, which of course raised an interesting question- is mixing doses okay? According to Health Canada, yes. Seeing how they keep flip-flopping on things I'm sure next week they will release another statement where they will say mixing doses wasn't a good idea and those who got a different vaccine will explode within six months. And you wonder why the majority of Ontarians (including myself) have lost faith in not just our government but Health Canada too.

Yesterday I went for my 2nd jab, I asked the lovely nurse what her thoughts were about mixing vaccines. She just shrugged her shoulders and replied, "Health Canada is saying its okay, so you should be fine." Her answer didn't inspire a lot of confidence in me. Honestly I don't think any health professional has a clue as to what they are doing anymore. 

As of yesterday at 11:07am  I am now fully vaccinated! It's been 24hours since my jab and other than feeling tired with an extremely sore arm, I'm thankfully for not having any of the symptoms I experienced with AZ.  

Counting the days til I'm able to travel again. 

XOXOXO,

Cocaine Princess

January 14th

Cocaine Princess here.

It's been 8 months since the breakup. I won't go into the in-depth details of what happened other than how emotionally and physically painful its been. If you remember years ago I was involved with Senor Bling (SB) My break-up with him was much different than this one. SB & I had known each other for years, we attended the same functions and ran in the same circles. We got together shortly after my mom's passing. Despite his reputation of being a bit of a player I stayed in a relationship with him...until I caught him cheating on me. I of course was deeply hurt (who likes to be cheated on!) but it was a different kind of hurt. When it happened I can't say I was shocked on account of his reputation. Truth be told I realized afterwards I was only with him because I was still grieving my mom's death. The wounds were still fresh and my head was still in a fog. There would be no way I would have even started a relationship with him otherwise.  My break-up with, lets call him "Blue Eyes" was different. Different because I was totally blindsided. 

A week before the breakup Blue Eyes had mentioned how frustrated he had become because we hadn't seen each other for 8 months. It was nobody's fault, Covid kept us apart and the border was closed and non-essential travel wasn't permitted.  The time that I did spend with him, he mentioned it was more of a vacation romance than an actual relationship. He mentioned that he felt we were drifting apart and the connection that was once there, wasn't. I didn't see it that way nor did I feel any of those things. He did though. God knows I did and tried everything I could to relocate there. With every fibre of my being I tried to be there with him on a full time basis so we could wake up together each and every morning and go to bed together each and every night. I tried moving heaven and earth to be with him. 

We had been dating for 4 years. We met on social media. He DM'ed me on Jan 14/16 and the rest they say is history. Right away there was this instant emotional connection with him. In my heart of hearts it felt like I'd known him for years. There was such a sense of familiarity. It was one of those things where I could almost feel him and each time I did there would be a message from him within minutes. We first DM'ed each other for a few weeks, then we exchanged phone numbers and began texting and then came the phone call. It was Feb 7/16 aka Superbowl Sunday!! It was Superbowl 50 and Denver defeated Carolina 24-10. I was still at work and had the closing shift.  Blue Eyes was at a bar watching the game. We had been texting each other throughout the day. At that point we already had been texting Good Morning, Good Night and texting throughout the day including when we left for work, when we came home and what we had for lunch and what we were planning to eat for dinner.  I remember my heart fluttering at the sound of his voice....

We communicated everyday talking about everything under the sun. The emotional connection was there all that was left was the physical connection....

XOXO,                                                                                                         

Cocaine Princess

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Where Do I Begin?

Cocaine Princess here.

It's been a roller coaster these past 15 months. I honestly don't know where to begin, thinking about it just hurts my head. So much has happened, falling in love, travelling, working and trying to heal. Trying to heal is a hard thing to do during 3 lockdowns (no that isn't a typo) & 2 stay-at-home-orders. We are currently on our 3rd lockdown and I pray it's our last one in this lifetime. Our government's handling of the pandemic has been one big cluster-fuck: from the vaccine roll-outs, to their attempts at trying to put us under a police state to the un-necessary lockdowns. Lockdowns clearly don't work, at least up here they don't. I do think things are starting to improve since the majority of the population has received their first dose, including myself. I was jabbed in April. Of course I wanted the Pfizer vaccine but unforunately I didn't have a choice. That particular vaccine was reserved to the elderly and those living in the hotspots. I got stuck with AzstraZeneca. That same dreaded vaccine that people didn't want to take on account of people dying from blood-clots. What the media failed to mention was those people who died from the blood clots had underlying conditions. I won't lie, I was disappointed I couldn't get Pfizer. In the world of fashion the Pfizer vaccine is like owning a luxury Bulgari or Chanel handbag whereas AZ is like owning a Michael Kors bag, available at outlets and even Marshalls! Oy. But hey, I did get a cool Star-Wars bandage!!

Our current stay-at-home order expired 2 days again however the "Grand Re-Opening" of the economy will begin in 10 days. It hasn't been easy especially when everyone in the US is living la vida loca with restrictions and mask mandates lifted. I do feel the light at the end of this miserable and crappy tunnel we've been living in up here is finally arriving. That light is faintly glowing in the distance.

When I started this blog way back when, I started it for me. I love to write and document things. I've been doing so since I learned how to write. In my 2018 entry I made a promise to myself I'd be writing/blogging regularly again but shamefully I didn't keep that promise on account of work and travel. I was keeping things documented on my IG page instead by posting pictures and briefly writing little blurbs. 

You're probably wondering what I've been up to? As I wrote in the beginning of this post, "I honestly don't know where to begin."

I'm not one to reveal too much when it comes to my romantic life but if you've been following my blog then you know from my past few posts there was someone in my life........I'm reminded of a quote from the film "Fried Green Tomatoes"

"You know, a heart can be broken, but it keeps on beating, just the same"

XOXO,

Cocaine Princess

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2021!!

Cocaine Princess here.

 It's been far too long since I posted anything. So much has happened & I don't even know where to begin. 

I will definitely be posting blog entries as I once did before. 

Stay tuned. 

XOXO,

Cocaine Princess

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